Hi friends/new readers! For this post, I read A Fable for the Living: a short story about people writing letters to the deceased; which brings us to the purpose of what I'll be writing in this blog post: a letter to my author's self. In the story, usually people writing letters to deceased family or friends made them feel better, which I could definitely relate to with this assignment, it felt inspiring writing this letter, and I hope when reading it you can hopefully can something out of it too :)
Dear Veronica, Wow.. it's been a minute since we last talked, months? A year? from all the past 'diary' entries- usually filled with bad events and sadness, it's honestly refreshing, writing this casual letter to you. I don't.. mind writing, I usually just get nervous my personal stories will sound boring or I'll have trouble putting it together, but I actually really need to do it sometimes. I love being able to get all my shit and thoughts down onto a piece of paper, it's almost therapeutic for me, but, I know I've been neglectful of doing it recently. Our relationship hasn't been too good.. it's been almost like a storm, every time when I write its dark, intense, and heavy, which I'm sorry, you don't deserve that.. But, it's a new year, which means a new start at your writing, you have had many positive things that have happened and are going to happen; finding out you have a sister, going on a cruise with your family and concerts with friends this summer, events that you are able to write about and be able to experience those happy moments again, you don't have to make writing just a negative routine for you. In order to keep up with you this year Veronica, my first step will be sure to start working on my blogs a few days in advance before it's due (starting with the next one ;) ) procrastination is absolutely our worst trait, as a writer and student, but getting all of our thoughts and ideas down beforehand will help fix that. My next step is just writing a few times a week, if it's just something that made your day or something bad that happened, anything to get your mind thinking and having a pen onto a piece of paper,and of course to enjoy it as well! Writing shouldn’t seem like a chore for you as you’ve already done it in your free time. Lastly, this final step is to not overthink, I know it'll be hard but, stressing and doubting your writing isn't going to make any improvements of yourself as a writer Veronica, you already know you have the skill and determination, just be confident and do it, you got this. Sincerely, Crisa Krouse
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In this post, I read the following texts to frame my writing:
Hi! Welcome to my first blog post :) This first assignment is to answer The Proust Questionnaire, which is thirty five questions the person taking the questionnaire has to answer, showing their true nature/ true personality, I enjoyed taking the time to answer the questions so I hope you enjoy taking the time to read my answers! Here is the link to the questionnaire so you can take a look yourself- The Proust Questionnaire __1.__What is your idea of perfect happiness? My idea of perfect happiness is being surrounded by the people I love. __2.__What is your greatest fear? My greatest fear is loneliness, or the ocean, the dark emptiness of it, if you’ve ever seen pictures of people swimming in the ocean- how small they look and how it gets darker around them, terrifying. __3.__What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? The trait I most deplore in myself is my sympathy/empathy, I know at a glance it doesn’t seem bad but, I feel sorry or sympathy for people that don’t deserve it, people that have hurt me in the past or have done me wrong, having too much sympathy for someone isn’t a good thing. __4.__What is the trait you most deplore in others? The trait I most deplore in others is fakeness. Acting completely cool and happy with someone to their face and then talking the most crap behind their bad is gross. __6.__What is your greatest extravagance? My greatest extravagance is getting my nails done. __7.__What is your current state of mind? My current state of mind isn’t.. The best state of mind, I’m a little unsure of things, I’m nervous about school, about allowing myself to get behind, and just a little stressed about presentations and tests coming up. __9.__On what occasion do you lie? I know lying isn’t okay or right to do no matter what, but in the occasion to not have someone’s feelings get hurt regarding something I could say, I never want anyone feeling bad or hurt by something I say. __10.__What do you most dislike about your appearance? I most dislike my body, I’ve gained weight throughout the years because of my birth control and whenever I look back at old pictures it’s a little upsetting, I hate my new stretch marks I have, how I look in clothes, etc, and am trying to work on it. __12.__What is the quality you most like in a man? I most like a man that can make me laugh, I love laughing, smiling, messing around with someone else, in my friend group I’m sorta known as the goofball so, if you can make me laugh- you’re golden. __14.__Which words or phrases do you most overuse? I most overuse ‘lol,’ ‘lmao,’ ‘period,’ usually in text, or ‘literally’ and ‘like’ in person. __16.__When and where were you happiest? I have a specific moment for this question, I was the happiest when I visited my mom’s apartment with my grandma a couple of years ago. My mom and I haven’t had the greatest relationship in the past due to her drug abuse (I already know I’m going to get personal with this class so might as well get right into it) I would get into fights with her, my grandma and her would get into fights with each other, it was a lot. But, I remember, the three of us in my mom’s tiny apartment, squished into a tiny bed all together watching The Apprentice, just happy? There was no fighting, no episodes from my mom, at one point we had to wedge a chair under the doorknob on the apartment door because we heard screaming and fighting from a couple near our apartment because we were scared, but still we were just laughing about it because that’s how we all were, I’ll remember that moment forever, I no longer have the two of them, so just thinking of that memory makes me happy. __17.__Which talent would you most like to have? I wish I was able to sing well, I listen to myself sing sometimes and I’m just like oh loooord I am an awful singer. __18.__If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? If I could change one thing about myself, physically it’d be my eyes, my mom had the prettiest blue eyes and I got stuck with poop brown ones so- I’d definitely take hers over mine, and personality wise I wish I was more outgoing, I feel like I’m in the middle of being an extrovert and an introvert. __19.__What do you consider your greatest achievement? My greatest achievement is the scholarship I got for college, I get money each semester, it’s not a lot but the reason behind why I got it makes me happy. __20.__If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? If I were to die and come back I would come back as a dog, a pet, I have a dog and she gets so happy and excited whenever I come home and I just want to know how that would feel, even if I leave for 5 minutes she gets so happy, which is crazy to me! __21.__Where would you most like to live? Short-term I would love to live in California, so many things to do there, so much open-mindness, but it’s obviously not the cheapest place to live, but I'd love to unrealistically live there or New York. __22.__What is your most treasured possession? My most treasured possession is my grandmothers ring, its gold and has a band of hearts on it, my grandma wore it, and then my mom wore it, and now I wear it, if I ever lost it or it got damaged, I would be heartbroken- it’s what I have to remember them by. __23.__What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? My lowest depth of misery would have to be the beginning of freshman year of high school, and the beginning of senior year. Freshman year was when I lost my grandma, it was incredibly hard, going into high school without her, I was growing up, getting my braces off, becoming a woman, and she wasn't there to see it. A few years later, I lost my mom at the start of senior year, it was very unexpected, I ended up taking a week off from school, her not being there during my last year of high school killed me. Near the end of school I barely got by, I had no motivation to do anything, her not being there during prom, graduation.. it was hard. __24.__What is your favorite occupation? I’ve only worked at one job, so I guess I’d have to say that one- big lots, the thing I love most about it is my co-workers honestly, some days they really just make my day, I’ve built many amazing friendships with people there. __25.__What is your most marked characteristic? My most marked characteristic is my goofiness. __26.__What do you most value in your friends? I most value my friend’s loyalty, through thick and thin I know I have them. __31.__What are your favorite names? My favorite names are Rose, Oliver, Theo and Lily. __32.__What is it that you most dislike? I most dislike negativity, negativity just brings me and my mood down, especially if you are being negative about something right away, like a new class or a new job, if over time you still aren’t feeling it- I gotcha, but if you are being negative about it straight away? Come on now. __33.__What is your greatest regret? One of my regrets is not keeping up with soccer growing up, both of my cousins are absolutely amazing at soccer and listening to my uncle talk about it/them makes me miss it. __34.__How would you like to die? I would like to die surrounded by the people I love, let them know that I love and appreciate them so hopefully they don’t have any sort of guilt after I go. |
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